Overcoming a fear

Don't laugh at me or roll your eyes...but, I overcame a huge fear today. Ever since I had Elizabeth (well almost 3 months ago) I've had this fear of taking her shopping by myself. When I say by myself I mean not meeting a friend somewhere or without my husband. I've done that lots but not anywhere by myself where I have the sole responsibility of caring for this young one in public with all eyes and ears to witness. So, I've done my shopping at night time or when family is watching her. But the cards were stacked against me today. We needed groceries something fierce and I really didn't care to trust my husband to the job, although he OFTEN gets groceries for us. The thing when your husband does it is he can't read your mind. I can give him the list and he does great, adding a few things to his liking but I JUST KNOWWWWW WHAT WE NEED by walking down those Kroger aisles and sometimes forget to add them to the list. So, today it is not too cold and I'm doing absolutely nothing of importance. I have no reason not to go, right? I have worked myself up so much about this with flashbacks of my baby years long ago with both boys in the grocery store and the baby screaming his head off and there is NOTHING you can do b/c you can't carry a head wobbling baby, push a cart and get your groceries. And for some reason fellow grocery store shoppers never seem very kind with their glares as you stroll down the frozen section - screaming baby in tow.
But I did it. I honestly prayed a whole lot before I got in the van, while I was driving and when I got there. I called Nate to let him know just how brave and insane I was at the moment. And I gave a big ol' pep talk to sister girl. SHE DID GREAT. She laughed and smiled at me for awhile then she went off to sleep (as long as I kept that cart moving back and forth) and didn't wake up until I checked out, in which she just looked around. I even made it home and put up groceries before she decided to have the biggest poop ever! =) I love that baby!