tubes

Well we survived the highly anticipated tube surgery with Elizabeth. When it came down to it I was more scared of her not being able to eat food after bedtime the night before and waiting for her scheduled surgery at noon. But as is most often with Elizabeth she surprised me. Eating a Popsicle at 7am was a highlight that took her mind off any idea of food; playing at her cousin's house for an hour before checking into the hospital was also a plus!

Once we got to the hospital it all happened so fast we were walking back to our van by the time her actual surgery was scheduled to begin. She enjoyed a little KFC on the way home and then slept for the afternoon. Even getting her ear drops last night and this morning she was a perfect patient, laying down still and awaiting the cotton balls to be put in her ears. I look forward to a healthier year with my little one!

I have to write even though everyone said it would be as it was, an easy procedure, every time I find myself back in that hospital I have flashes of my two week old baby being rushed into the ER and the next 24 hours that followed in that building. I have to choke back tears as I walk down the same halls Nate and I did that whole week as we waited for her body to heal. When we were walking to meet Elizabeth after she woke up in the post op yesterday we had to walk past rows of curtains hiding families with their sick children. There were all kinds of kids waking from their surgeries that were I'm sure a lot more serious then some tubes in their ears. It made me feel very blessed that we had made it once through something scary and were now just walking through a very simple procedure where as some of those families would be staying for quite awhile as they awaited healing.

I don't know if I'll ever shake the nauseous feeling that overtakes me when my mind takes me back to those days of her unstable life but I'm thankful that every time it does I get to remind myself what a blessing it is that she is healthy now.